I don't know how to think anymore toward all these cases I've been through in the last couple of years. I didn't wanna be superstitious about them to begin with, and I always try to think of them in as realistic ways as possible. After all, I used to live in societies who don't believe in supernaturals. But when the unthinkable occurs and I don't find any logical explanation for it, I would likely accept whatever is presented to me..even when it sounds mystical.
Let's just say that I believe I was attacked, in some mystical ways by those who hate me or people close to me. Then the questions would be, what good is it for them? Would they get happy and laugh, or celebrate their achievements? I wonder if they get some kinda satisfaction when I get unfortunate or suffer some strange illness. I'm sure one thing that they won't get is my wealth since I don't have much to be taken away nor I have a throne to seize.
I look back at all the things I've done in life. I try to figure out people who would possibly like to harm me because of what I've done in the past, the bad or even the good things. Whether they do it based on revenge or simply jealousy. I can come up with a name or two who got disappointed at me, but I can't see why they would go so low to attack me in such extraordinary ways when I don't think that I hurt them that much. Is this what I deserve to get from what I've done to them? Or perhaps, they mean harm to those who are close to me but I just happen to be the easy target? Or do they do it just to make a point on something that I have no clue of?
This is endless...for I believe they could be anyone at all. They could be people I'm not familiar with, or those who I know very well. They could even be people who are considered close to me for I have experienced getting stabbed in the back by close friends before. I'm sick of it but there's nothing I can do about it. It may remain a mystery to me and never stop until they get exactly what they expect from me. I don't wanna let it get to me because I'm tired of worrying. This is a challenge of life that I have to take while I can learn good lessons from it. Life goes on and I'm living it one day at a time....
